Enlightenment through Methadone and Hypnosis Sedatives and other doctor approved Remedies

Through Methadone illusion, and sedative hypnosis, I see through the confusion, so think I’m in the gnosis. Through Heavy blurry eyes, I see through all the lies, that the liars all deny. I’m sailing seas of sedation. Fuck your condemnation! I feel no humiliation! Psycho prophet of forgotten nations spreading the gospel of sedation! That evil burned out tranny, that princess of the freaks, she’s here to set you free! Open your eye and SEA!

Die with me Again

Empty, without a sense of place or purpose. Empty, so void of peace and formless. Empty, for I am he whose borneless. The all consuming void. The one you can’t destroy. The one you can’t deny.

And after everything I’ve seen, every drop of blood I bleed, I still yearn for you! Burn for you! Cry for you! Die for you! I can’t escape this place. Inside this empty space, the prison in my face, I still see you! Feel for you! Scream for you! Dream of you!

Empty, without a will or reason. Empty, to kill it will be treason. Empty, the chill that changes seasons. Don’t ever say goodbye. Don’t ever ask me why. Just sit and watch me die.

And as the stars above align, every sacred sign, I can still see you! Bleed for you! Bow to you! Drown in you! I can’t escape this place. Don’t even think I want to, want to see the end with you, cry with you! Lie with you! Try with you! Die with you!

And when it all came crashing down, when I knew I’d been left behind, I went blind! Tried to turn back time! I paid for my crimes! I PAID FOR MY FUCKING CRIMES! Please don’t leave me alone like this! Please just one more kiss! I wanna feel you beneath my skin, as the needle pierces in, as I slowly give in! Giving in to this sweet sin! Just die with me again!

Seas of Forever

I open my eye,

I tell another lie,

I breathe and I die!

I die!

I think of love I am denied,

I am denied!

Why God, why?

Why oh why, I cry!

Am I not good enough?

Am I not strong enough?

Am I not strange enough?

Was it something I should have said?

Was my image ever in your head?

I fall upon my knees,

I feel like I’m diseased,

I fall to my knees, deceased!

My heart decreased!

I think of all that could have been,

Rather live in sin,

Why God, why?

Why oh why, I cry!

Your image is an echo,

Fading with times slow flow.

Your image is all I have left,

Burned within til my death.

I’m tethered to you,

Even if I’m just dead weight.

I miss you,

Even when you’re the one I hate.

I’m cursing at cruel fate,

This hunger I will never sate.

Am I not good enough for you?

Am I not strong enough for you?

Am I not strange enough for you?

What was it I should have said?

Can’t get you out of my head.

An open bleeding sore.

These confessions of a whore,

Who loved and wanted more.

Rotten to the core,

But she’ll love you forevermore.

Yes, I’ll love you forevermore!

Until this heart beats nevermore.